I’m starting to wonder
Mar 30, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
as if my head weren’t busy enough, I’m truly starting to wonder the intentions of some of my gentleman and lady callers …
bad apples might fall from the tree, but I only throw them in the trash.
be careful the apples you choose to feed me, because … I’m really good at pretending you never existed in the first place =)
i phone photos, channeling Mexico in the 80′s
Mar 28, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
So, thanks to slave big and fat, he bought me this yellow bikini and sea foam knee high’s for our session – and here is the shoot I did pre- session with an iphone. haha
to my slave in WI
Mar 28, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
Thank you for a wonderful caning session =)
New Art Work
Mar 27, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
Been busy, being a midnight painter this week.
But, here is what I finished up last night =)
Acrylic on wood chunk, it’s a spanish girl with a painted skeleton face. Snowy mountains for boobs, and a body and hair that goes into octopus legs.
Spring colors!!! A guy, I always draw, and new little trees everywhere, because I miss them.
New self portrait. The polaroid above is written in lipstick on my stomach, to say ” Eat your heart out ”
then the other by my friend on recycled wood found in the alley.
Another self portrait, bright colors, a lot of fun =)
Rough week
Mar 25, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
I can’t even begin to tell you how many ups and downs I’ve had.
My life is a roller coaster of emotions in which I am currently almost drowning in.
But, caning sessions tomorrow =) And, painting til then.
Heres the shoot I did recently. I’m good at sharing.
slave brian is in the hospital !!! rough rough shape !!!
Mar 24, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
If it’s not one thing, it’s another.
First my mom losing her memory, and job.
Then my brother is laid off.
Then my family in Chile during the earthquake.
Then our friend Annette was in the hospital.
Now, slave brian is in the hospital.
He contacted me last night to say he had been injured.
He was bleeding from his mouth and nose. He’s broken 3 ribs.
It appears while working yesterday, he was smothered … in video games from a truck bringing them into the store. Something happened for where the bar came lose and sent them all flying.
It took 15 minutes and 5 guys to get all 3,000 lbs of games off of him. I know he must have been so scared. Because, I’m soooo scared just thinking about something so random happening like this -
For all of those who care about, Looking Up, my slave brian, please please send him a message.
He needs to have his spirits up while he’s going to be in the hospital a few days recovering, and missing us all.
And while searching for a cute get well image, I found the best thing ever ….
For brian
Just a Normal Day
Mar 24, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
Laid in bed.
Watched 80′s movies.
Grabbed lunch with a friend.
Grocery Store.
Bed.
New Sheer American Apparel Knee High’s, thanks to slave big and fat.
Looky Looky – Eye candy!
Mar 22, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
hahah – so my intention when I model, is to totally rock the shoot, and give the photographer work he can be proud of.
But this was not the case, with Erin and I. She’s a good friend, and I ruined our shoot, by giggling …. during, every photo to the point where we stopped, and put our pjs on, and went to her porch, and drank wine from the box. LOL. Perfect girls night.
Also, it turns out, I yelled when I shouldn’t have.
Here is my public apology (and I just wrote an eassy to my slave as to why I yelled, and asked for this bracelet) because, look – he already went and got it for me.
I liked it because it was unique, one of a kind, made by a local artist (support your local artists!!!) and it was beautiful. And, well I’ve never had anything ever like this, in my entire life. I’ve had emotionally a rough week, and wanted a little pick me up gift … is that wrong of me? It might be …. but, he wouldn’t have gotten it for me, if I didn’t deserve it, right?
Come on, say it with me.
I deserve it. (maybe I just need to say it to myself, a few times, so I can see the big picture, I’ve created).
I’m excited to get it !!! I see this as something I’m going to treasure, because it’s not only rad jewelry, but because it’s someone’s art. And, man, I can’t wait for the compliments to roll in, so I can brag about my slave!
So, today on the agenda.
Shoot.
Session.
Grocery Store.
Make Dinner.
Paint!
Tomorrow, I’m doing a new figure drawing class, and then Wednesday shooting with a guy whos flying in from New Mexico !!!
And Saturday, I’m walking in a vintage runway fashion show !!! Fun fun (equals cool vintage clothing as a reward/girl time with my favorite ladies!)
This week is going to be eventful, and I’ll have a new video up. My client today is REQUESTING I document his gross behavior. Let’s see what I can get him to do !!! heheh.
tata for now, my little followers *kisses*
Do I have to DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU?
Mar 21, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
It’s called Silver Room.
They have a website, they have a phone number, and they can take credit cards over the phone.
You tell them what you want, describe how it was – BECAUSE I SHOWED IT TO YOU FOR A REASON.
Purchase it, and I’ll scoop up my WELL DESERVED GIFT when I go to run errands.
sigh ….
where are your detective skills, slave brian????
Finalizing My Lease Today!
Mar 19, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic
I’ve had such a busy week, I’ve been avoiding phone calls, and running around, being creative, relaxing here and there, and just soaking in this good weather.
It really is amazing, what a warm breeze can do to your mental health. I have to say, that moving out of this apartment in a month might be the best thing that has happened this year. I’ve been writing a lot in my own personal journal lately, and I’ll say it here too. “This apartment has slowly killed me.”
That was the title to my latest entry. I’m so happy to start collecting boxes, and sorting out my belongings, but my life. I donated 2 bags of clothes yesterday to the church on my street, that felt good. I truthfully wanted to send them to Chile, because I haven’t heard from my dad since he said he was alright – but I wouldn’t even know where to send them.
About to go out and run my errands for today =) I’m buying my boyfriend a journal so he can write his new inspirations down too now that the weather is nice.
And shhh … I entered him to be a feature on a new up and coming photography website. If he gets it, I’m not going to fess up that I submitted him anoymously. I want him to have a feel good moment =) Because this weather, everyone needs a little pick me up !
And I get to pick up my painting I purchased one month ago today, by my friend Hebru Brantley. He’s an amazing artist I met my first week here in Chicago. He was kind enough to allow me into his AMMMMAZZZZZING STUDIO, and even go through all his filing cabinets worth of sketches and mini canvas’s. He is truly an inspiration, and I’m so fortunate I was able to afford one of his small pieces ($40). I make financial exceptions for art. I’m not only an artist, but a collector. I love to collect photographs of my friends, their art work, and those who inspire me. My house is not only going to be my new safe haven away from destruction, but it’s going to be my gallery, and creativity hub!!! I’ll post a photo of the painting after I pick it up tonight for all to see!
Then, after I do that, off to the new apartment to finalize my lease, get the tour of the building and snap a few shots for my mom and dad and brothers to see! (Because they’re curious, and I’m proud of this new place.)
Isn’t it horrible, I never showed a photo of my apartment to my mom upon moving here one year ago. I was ashamed. It was my first time out of state, and I knew this is what I had to settle for, but knew I deserved, and was capable of more. Mom says I’m definitely like my father, I’m a “go getter”.
So – off I go, to start my new life =D
Kisses!!!
P.S. Where are my men who want their asses kicked, and I’m dyyyyyying to do another spitting session where all I do, IS SPIT! ahahaha, on you, and your face and your genitals, and face slapping. WHY DOESN’T ANYONE LIKE FACE SLAPPING? LOL.
Gimme some faces to slap.
P.S. Thank you Annette for your payment, you’ll be receiving slave brian’s FIRST FORCED URINE FROM MY WINE GLASS VIDEO, FROM THE EMPTY GLASS, ME DROPPING MY PANTIES, PEEING, AND THEN WALKING RIGHT UP TO HIM …. AND GULP GULP GULP!
Heheheh.
