New York Latex Wishlist!

Jun 30, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

So, this morning, over coffee I started to update my wish list. And all I can think about is rocking these casting calls for Inked Magazine, and working with 4 other AMMMMMMAZING photographers in New York City. I’m planning *fingers crossed*going in September to New Jersey to stay with my brother hopefully for one week.
This way, I get to spend time with him, and eat and sleep for free. I’ll just take the train in and out of the city.

So, I’m thinking, what would really wow these people. This could reallu open doors for my modeling career. And then it hit me. I’m shooting mainly film, so it’s going to be grainy, and old looking, messy, but soft. And I thought, BAM. Latex.

I only own one piece of latex, which my sweet slave bought me, and he never even came in to session. However, I was so very thankful. Here is the photo, shot by solaranus.

This is my favorite photo, taken of me, IN ALL TIMES. I love that I’m overlooking the city, the little specks on the film, the colors. It’s magic, and I have to say, my ass has never looked better.

So, with this type of film and feel in mind – my hair is so long now, and I have something to go with these items. I’m picking 3 items that I would, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, AND LOVE SOME MORE TO OWN.

Here they are:

http://www.vexclothing.com/shop/product_info.php?cPath=22_24&products_id=151

Seafoam, tuxedo latex top. I imagine my black curly messy hair, dark eyes, and pale pink lipstick …

This top is a frightening, $200.00

http://store02.prostores.com/servlet/ego-assassin/the-110/SCANNER/Detail

Skirt is $175.00

This cut out mini skirt in black. Because if my ass looks that good out – it might look even better as a tease with the little strips covering my flesh.

and these boots, which are now on sale for $340.00

http://www.80spurple.com/shop/product/96801/5525/report-footwear-women-s-kane-leather-over-the-thigh-boots-black

I’m opening up my piggy bank for anyone who wants to donate to my bad ass modeling career.

And, hahaha, here’s my butt today in my new american apparel undies.

Another shot by solaranus – this is a polaroid, as the other was a film camera.

*fingers crossed* because miracles, caaaaaan happen!!!

Doors are opening, and I’m choosing to dance through them!

Jun 29, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

You’ve alway heard the quote – ” When a door closes, a window opens.” I love that quote. Almost as much as
“There’s nothing lucky about a bunny with no feet!” or my favorite (this is off topic, but sooo funny)

“Going to McDonald’s for a salad is like going to a prostitute for a hug.” hahaha I gotta make my own tee shirt. Does Wal Mart still sell iron on letters? Fuck, someone stole my iron though …hahaha, I’ll figure out a way to get that on a shirt. lol.

Anyways, I’m so off topic already. Damn coffee this morning makes me type like a butterfly! hahaha

So, yes. My shoot the other day with Bo Streeter was ammmmazing. I couldn’t have been more happy. My weekend was action packed. Some amazing action, and something also really horrible happened to a friend of mine.

First of all, the modeling agency Bo works for, all thought I was already with an agency! This is the biggest compliment! The receptionists told me they loved my curly hair, couldn’t believe I was 26, and said I had a great personality, and hoped I’d go far. Which I thought was sooo sweet. These two ladies rocked it, and calmed my nerves before shooting. Then, I met Bo, and he was like, the smallest teddy bear ever. He was amazing, and we’ve totally decided to become friends. He even joined me at a roof top party at my best friends later that night. Which was, wow, a compliment to me – because to me, he’s not just anyone. He’s Bo Streeter, rockstar bad ass photographer. And for him and I to form a friendship, is amazing. We had a lot in common, and we both want to work together again on a bunch of personal projects! Which is exciting none the less!!!

Now, I get to the party around 8:30 pm, things start poppin off around midnight. There’s even a pinata! It’s a little pig in a dress, filled with stickers, old cd’s, dirty underwear (hahaha, my idea!) and candy. All of my friends, I have EVER made in Chicago were there. I had a total girls night with my five best girlfriends (all non dommes, but photographer ladies, make up artists, and just regular bad ass women!) I couldn’t have been happier! I also met a ton of new people who were equally as awesome.

So, I started getting super tired about 3 am, and decided to go catch a train home. At 3:50 a.m, my best friend calls me super upset. She was shaking, and in shock. I could tell she wanted to cry – her feelings were just … unreal. It turns out, our friend Josh, tripped and fell off the roof, backwards and landed on the cement. The roof was at least 15 feet. Being that he was drunk, he had no way of bracing himself. He fell straight down, just missing the metal fence, and slammed his head. The ambulance was called, police show up, and he was hospitalized. I’m not sure if he’s out or not yet, I do know however, he had to get staples in his head. Which is so scary to even think about. I say my prayers that he missed that fence. I don’t think I could handle a friend dying in front of about 100 people. I just couldn’t. I keep replaying our conversations that night, we talked laughed, and then … he almost died. It’s just unreal. So, I’m telling everyone this – because not only did it scare me, but to remind everyone to be soooooo safe when they’re drinking. Not only drinking and driving, but to be familiar with your surroundings. I’m lucky to have amazing friends, who took care and handled the situation like pro’s, not moving his body, calling the ambulance, and going with him to make sure he was okay. Which is awesome. I am really lucky to have responsible friends. So everyone, be careful!

Whew. Heavy stuff. However, I have more good news!

I have an ammazing photographer who wants to work with me in North Carolina. If I could fly into Greensboro he could pick me up, and wants to shoot a fine art nude in a swamp. And you guys know me, I see a challenge, and I want it! This is a challenge. I grew up with all boys, so I was always in the mud, wet grass, or in the trees. So, a swamp is … holy shit, ammmmmazing. Of course I want to get in it! So, I’m going to do my best to make this happen by the end of this month. I looked up tickets last night on travelocity and they are 275. But this way, I could spend some more time with my mom, who’s condition is worsened. Her memory loss is sorta turning to anger, and denial. I’m also beginning to notice paranoia. This is all so scary to me. You know, when you’re little you think you’re parents are invinsiable. No one can touch them, they’re precious day in and day out. But, then, as you get older, some of us catch our parents crying … they admit they’re scared … they talk to you about how to plan their funnerals, they want to sit you down and talk about their “will” and some divorce, nasty things are said, and then your left to be a typical broken down american family. Well, this is me. My mom sometimes asks me when my birthday is. She forgets how old I am, and has recently started asking me what my middle name is. And, I can’t do anything. There is no cure for Alheimzers, but there is medicine on the market now. My goal, is to get my mom to the doctor, and get her checked. My grandmother had this disease, and it was horrible. I watched her become afarid of the night, starting at 4pm, I had to hide the house keys from her just so she wouldn’t wonder off while I showered, and then I watched her language detoriate into mush. And the thought of this one day being my mother …. tears me up. So this trip to North Carolina is important, on more than one level.

Also, I had another photographer write to me today from New York, who’s ammmazing, and says he’d like to shoot me for free. Which means, I don’t have to pay him 450 an hour, which is his normal rate!!! So, that’s a win win. I’m still trying to coordinate this trip for September. Sadly, havent found any paying photographers yet, but there’s still time for me to advertise myself to some of the amateur photographers, and such. So, I’m motivated!

Also, I sold a painting today! To a friend I went to college with who lives in California! This means, I made rent!!!!

But now, I have to focus on a painting for another client.

Also, a SUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPER BIG THANK YOU, To slave who loves porkchops as much as I do. For getting me, not one, not two, but EVERYTHING ON MY WISHLIST. I’m not even kidding. I’m having a permanent grin, for months because of this. I got everything I’ve ever wanted from Aldo, American Apparel, and Urban Outfitters. I can’t wait to shoot (got another one tomorrow) and want these job interviews, to bring it on!!! I’m going to be the prettiest princess in the whole world!!!! I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO THANKFUL. I actually told him I might throw up, from being so overwhelmed by his generiousity … seriously, like, I can’t believe it.

So, new goals : North Carolina trip by the end of July/August

New York trip for Inked Magazine casting in September (staying in NJ with my big brother, so no hotel fees, and train into the city)

Ok! I have a house to clean, dishes to do, and some nude vaccuuming on my list! Annnnd, I’m making cranberry orange muffins today! What a wonderful day!!!!!

hahaha, this is me =) Wearing a leather skirt my step mom just gave me of her’s, and my granny’s old pink plaid shirt =)

This is my favorite, I love the vintage truck, the shadows, and how classic my look is in this

All by my new friend Bo Streeter =)

hehehe, sucking on my middle finger, you know, just for fun! hehhe

Hope you like them!

Who wants to get spit on this week?

Jun 28, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

I’m so into spitting, I even had the photographer take spitting photos of me. Hahaha

Set up your spitting session with me this week for $200 an hour =) My new summer discount =)

A good day!

Jun 26, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Today is turning out to be a very good day so far, minus the little bug that just crawled up my leg!

My best friends from back home, 2 still in NC and 1 in Australia, and 1 in Hawaii are sending me videos!!! I’m so excited!

I have my shoot today with Bo Streeter, who I’m more than excited to work with!

Also, Keith Allen Phillips, who is rad, from LA wrote to me today and asked to shoot me next month when he travels, and making a pit stop for me here in Chicago!!!!

Working on a painting, and a new show this weekend.

SUnday is gay pride parade and I should know whether I got the job by Monday. (Fingers still crossed!)

I have a photo shoot on the 4th, in the water, and roof top with another great guy who use to come to Holy Mountain’s kinky photo shoots!

All of this is good news!
Plus I did laundry, and who doesn’t love clean underwear! hahaha

My best friend is having a roof top party tonight, so I get to see all my girlfriends, and my best friends! I’m excccited! Today is going to be awesome! I’m in high spirits! Plus I get to see an old friend on Monday!

Things are finally looking up.

Also, like I said before, I am losing this site on July 4th. However, I plan on moving it over. I think however I will lose Misspanic.com (sooooo sad) but working on moving over my archives to another domain, and a new logo, with more modeling photos, as well as my bdsm blogs!

Also, I will be losing my Holy Mountain phone number, so email will be my only contact. But I WILL REMAIN on niteflirt. Because, talking dirty to little bitches is just too much fun to give up!

More news, later! Now, off to shave my legs and paint my toe nails!

xoxoxoxox

zomg!!!! blue sequin wizard of oz heels!!!!

Jun 25, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

After I made my post on Mistress Destiny’s forum this morning (nothing goes better with my coffee than perverts these days)

I went to my old favorite cheap website. Stripperdiscount.com, and typed in baby blue heels, and these appeared!!! I want them all. I can totally see myself being a bad ass in these!

“There’s No Place Like Home!”

http://www.discountstripper.com/teeze-10gblue.aspx

Click on it, to see some magical shoes!

Anyone who wants to send these to me, check with me first – and I’ll tell you my size! If bought, I’ll get you a ten minute tease video in these shoes, and photos from a photo shoot !!!

My Heels

Jun 25, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

After my job interview yesterday (which I think went well, I’ll know by the weekend) I walked a mile in my dress and heels downtown. Big mistake.

I have 4 cuts on my feet, and by the time I got to where I was going, I was bleeding.

Ouch. ouch. ouch, all the way home.

P.S. Niteflirt has been rather interesting lately. Caller – Betcee got my creative juices flowing, if you know what I mean!

Guess What!

Jun 23, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

I’m tired of everyone’s bullshit!

I have a real job interview tomorrow, and thinking about putting an end to this site, and starting my own softcore paid site with videos and such where you pay monthly.

Too many people have let me down. I’m sure you all understand. Our economy sucks, and money isn’t making itself.

Wish me luck for my job interview tomorrow!

Last Night’s Lighting Storm

Jun 22, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Was oh so amazing.

I had the most amazing sex, ever with MY man. The thunder was loud, as was I.

The lighting was flashing, and the sky was a baby pink. The window was open and I could hear the rain pouring down.

It flashed all over the lake and sky highlighting little inches of my body in seconds, then followed by more.

It was beautiful when we both came. And it was sweet when he held me. I fell asleep on his chest, with a big smile, and comfort knowing I’m HIS.

Dear God, I want more. Last night was, hot, hot, hot.

Nite Flirt IS ON ALL DAY TODAY!

Jun 21, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Is on, all day long, come get it!

1-800-TO-FLIRT followed by MY personal extension: 03-76-859-9.

I’m sooooo excited!!!

Jun 16, 2010 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

I get to work with Bo Streeter, the photographer !!!!

Check out bostreeter.com

Maybe if I shoot well enough I’ll be added to this master mind’s web page! Which would be the dopest thing since sliced bread.

Also, I’m going to a store launch rooftop party Thursday night for a website I modeled for that is up and running. I’m super excited, because these woman and models I worked with, were amazing, and it’s all vintage inspired. I couldn’t be any more happier to have this chance to net work with other artistic professionals. I know now, what it is I want to do with my life, and these are stepping stones to where I WANT TO BE.

Not to mention, a reason to dress up, free cocktails, my 2 best friends are coming with me, and it’s on the roof top with a ill ass dj, and fashion designers will be there! I’m so fucking excited.

Then I get to work with Bo, and I have a session this weekend. Hopefully this fella plays nice, so he can continue to get a discount from me. If he doesn’t, I have no problem kicking him to the curb like the rest of you who aren’t worthy of my time.

How does one become worthy of my time, you ask?

Gifts are a way to stand out of the crowd. If you chose something from my amazon wish list, you have a better chance of catching my attention. But, it must be from my wish list. If you get me something from somewhere else, or it’s used (it’s happened before) you’ll go onto my SHIT LIST. And that doesn’t mean I’ll shit on you, hahaha, it means your name will never see the light of day in my eyes.

So, here is my wish list.

http://www.amazon.com/wishlist/3PAO815JOH2Q/ref=cm_wl_rlist_go

I have updated everything. A lot of the items were bought for me by MY slave brian, so I have taken them off.

Just a few things remain, a few clothing items for summer. (I’m on my way to Goodwill to turn in clothing that doesn’t fit!) and a few art items in which I would love to have.

Also, I wanted to share with you, a photo I received today from Pornsaints – it’s the catalog for the show I’m in – check it out!!!

!!!