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Open Toe High Heel Combat Boots – For Sale

Apr 15, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

When purchased, I’ll send you a copy of this photo as well, so you can see my piggies

$ 35 , size 9 (perfect for any transgenders who want to walk in my shoes as a Dominant Woman, for a night. )

Panty Club

Apr 15, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

So I’m moving again, a new studio on the horizon – I’m drinking my black coffee this morning, and organizing all of my belongings. I’ve come to realize, I think I have enough underwear for the rest of the year and to not wear any twice. I want to start a Monday tribute, to my butt. Hahaha … Every Monday, I’ll take a webcam photo to start the week – those panties will be for sale. Each pair will be $20.00, and if you have any “requests” for me in them, it will be a $10 charge, as in …. well, *giggles* you all know you can write to me and request. Everyone has a different obsession about my panties ….

I plan on making a mailing list as well – working on it, google can sometimes be an ass. I’ll send out maybe one or two within two weeks. Maybe a short video, of what’s for sale, and then if you’d like to purchase the item (dirty socks, hose, ripped hose, panties, soaked panties, red panties, etc.) you mail me back and claim your item.

Allllllrrrriiiiiigggggghty, because I just have too many panties! So, why not share my deliciousness?

Off to start my day.

Posting a new ad on backpage today

“O” – German Fetish Magazine

Apr 14, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Thanks to a fellow fan, I was sent an article about me in a German Fetish Magazine, called “O”.

For anyone who can get me this magazine with the article about my collared slave and I, will get a treat!

Must get the magazine for me, and show proof Like a picture of you holding it.

Also, I have a new studio to session out of – so bring it on.

And, my shoot today, to me … was a bust … rushed … and personally, I didn’t get one photo I’m even slightly happy with, however was told it was going to be published. We’ll see.

Biggest Shoot Ever

Apr 13, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

I was at Four Seasons Hotel Bar a month ago, enjoying a scotch with a friend of mine, when I began speaking to the gentleman beside me. Low and behold, this man is who invented demolitian – as in making a building cave in, rather than explode. Anyways, with his connections, after our brief conversation, he mentioned me, as a model, stylist, illustrator to an internationally famous photographer, who works out of Chicago, NY, San Fran and Boston – my name was dropped, was contacted, and shoot is set up for tomorrow. I’m so excited, I might throw up. Everyone think nice thought about me tomorrow from 2 pm til 5 pm !

xox

An Excited Lady

Almost Home

Apr 9, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Back in Chicago this week, and ready to beat ass. I seriously could take a belt to someone’s face with no regrets.

My Ultrasound

Apr 6, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Did my ultrasound today, technician said my ovaries are still smiling!

More test results back in 2 weeks!

Keep rooting and praying for my insides and lady parts!

New Studio (Hopeful) and an Ultrasound

Apr 5, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Me on my, I’m tired of getting poked and prodded at.

Another doctors appointment done this morning, an ultrasound scheduled tomorrow. I’m going to really need some sessions by the end of this month, not only to boost my bdsm esteem, but my financial dilemma my health is putting me in.

Spoke with a fellow Domme, Mistress Olivia Black on Sunday, and hope to start sessioning at a new studio when I return from my trip, here with my mom and brother. I have to admit I truly connected with this new Domme, and am excited at the possibility of working along side of her for possible sessions. If the need of two beautiful tattooed sadist women suits you

Anyways, feeling a bit better, mentally. Just a drag to be sick for an entire month, with no work, and my best friend being the toilet. LOL.

Planning on making a strong comeback. I’ll be in the city the 13th through the end of the month. Also, asking for volunteers to help me put boxes in the uhual on the 29th of April, as my elevators broken and well, I’m little and dominant. I think I could make it into a fun day if I could have three well adjusted submissive volunteers help me out for the day. Please email me if you’re interested. I prefer volunteers who don’t whine, and have seen me before.

My mom is currently making me my favorite dinner, and then I’m crawling in the bed to watch some garbage on tv. This make me a happy girl. Oh, and my brother took me to get a hair cut. So, physically (image wise) I’m starting to look like I’m not so sick anymore. Yippppeeeee.

Thanks for all the well wishes, the support on my clips site, and the sweet emails in general. I’m truly lucky to have fans, clients, submissives, slaves, you name it surrounding me while I’ve been going through my rough patch. It means the world to me.

xox

Miss Panic

Youtube – 90 thousand hits :)

Apr 3, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

Overall, my videos have totalled 90,000 hits

and my slave is doing his part in promoting his Mistress on his youtube as well Full videos can be bought on my clips 4 sale shop!

http://www.youtube.com/user/thisisbullshit54#p/a/u/2/3kA29iFbwaw

http://www.youtube.com/user/thisisbullshit54#p/u/3/MnTC-PfDv1k

http://www.youtube.com/user/thisisbullshit54#p/u/4/Lm33wpAJrTY

Taking A Step Back

Apr 3, 2011 A Day in the Life of Miss Panic

My life in a nutshell is a disaster.
I need sunshine, warm weather, and fresh flowers.
I need direction in my life, because as I know it – I feel like I’m carrying the weight of the world on my back.
I’m constantly worried about my mother. She’s to the point now where she can open her wallet and pull out my kindergarden photo and she thinks it’s a stock photo that came with the wallet. She wonders who this little girl is … and it breaks my heart.
I’m dying for a vacation. I’m dying to not live pay check to pay check. I’m dying to have a studio of my own, close to where I live so I can practice my art, spray paint at my own lesuire and even have a place to mentally break down. I wonder, how can I accomplish this? Especially
without those who are loyal to me? I want to stand tall. I want someone to think I’m a great investment, and help me spread my skills through out.

I know I portray being a lion, a little one because of my frame, but the truth is I’m still not there.
I feel like I’m in a million pieces. I have a thousand decisions to make, and new medical bills to worry about.
I believe I racked up over a thousand in bills just this week from going back and forth to the doctor, between blood work, my trip to the emergency room, a pap smear, and an ultrasound. My body feels violated, weak, and overall, I feel un pretty and disgusting. My uterus hates me. My life is saddened by the thought of being 27 and never having kids. It seems the more I’m around
them, and recently it’s been the case – the more I think, I’d be an excellent mother. I’ve been teaching arts and crafts, doing little family dinners, and taking care of snotty noses, playing soccer in the front yard and being the “stop light” when the kids are on
their scooters and bikes. Feeling a babys skin against my face has done wonders to how I feel about my future. I question myself though, is it because I haven’t had this feeling yet or is it genuine because of my mid life crisis at the moment. These are all things I’m pondering.

As I mentioned before, Holy Mountain has closed. I will no longer be sessioning there, and am looking into other endeavors, and trying to meet new girls who share the same interests as myself in terms of bdsm, non-cattiness, and a drama free workplace. Do these exist for Dommes?
I laugh. I have hope I’ll find a new place. But then my mind wonders, how long will I be in this industry? I’ve been overwhelmed so much lately.

My health has severely brought me down. I was hoping for a fresh start this new year. Since December, my life has been a whirlwind of emotions.
None in which I truly asked for. Moving to my third apartment, being evicted by the bank because the owner of my building was too cheap to pay the city mortgage, and now as an innocent by standard, I was left scrambling. If it weren’t for a certain slave, I wouldn’t have been able to afford my uhual truck within 5 days, and storage, on top that I’ve been busting my ass paying two rents for 2 months, ($1100) and that’s just rent, not to mention I’m paying my own utilities, and food. Forget transportation. I’ve been staying in every single weekend, and eating ramen and white rice to make sure everything’s done, and yet I’m still behind. I hate the feeling … of not being good enough. But this is life isn’t it? No one ever asks for half of what they’re given. I’m trying to work towards what I want as a career in my life. I don’t think for my future, I’ll be a Pro, forever. I’m dying to be respected in the vanilla workplace as well. To have the title as a respected illustrator is important to me. More than many of you know. I want to curate shows, I want to sell out at my opening. I want to have money to be able to go out with my girlfriends if I feel like a sushi treat or even a cocktail. Sometimes, it’s so depressing to answer the phone, to tell you you’re a pathetic piece of shit, and then instruct you how to jerk off. I hang up, and wonder if my dignity is worth $3.99 a minute. Yet sometimes, I laugh and laugh and tell my friends about your phone behavior because … well, I enjoyed it.

What’s a girl to do?

I want more of an education. I want a degree in design. I want to do interior design. I want a hefty book collection. I want to model, and travel, meet new
people. There’s so much more to life than staying in bed. I’m so ready to feel better about life, and let go of this posion I’m currently feeling.
I want my care bear attitude back …

My phone line is disconnected. Email is the only way of currently contacting me.

I will be out of town for a while. I’m going to visit my mom on the 4th – 10th, and will be doing more medical tests while I’m in New Jersey.

I’m hoping to return with a new outlook, or maybe piece of mind. After that, I have to move once again, on the 30th. Then … I don’t know …maybe I’ll move to Canada and stay with my dad for a while. I need life to cut me some slack ….